The Shame

She loves her country


And is proud of the strides it makes

But scratch the surface a bit

And she finds nothing but a land lying waste



“No child labour allowed “

A proud sign outside an office declares

Yet in she walks and she’s faced

With the sight of a kid happily brushing away at a ledge



She wonders for what the deception?

Why the big façade?

Why bother to say something

When if that suit you best that’s what you are?



Someone who should be in school

Is so happy to just have a job

Not able to see through the exploitation

Cheerfully lives the dream he bought



And she looks on this from the outside

And realizes this is a one-off case not

And she bleeds cos she seem to have not

The courage and strength to fight this off.

:)

Putting out a smile to all my readers just cos I felt like it. :) 

Reality

So Reality shows seem like they are here to stay. And sometimes there are some really good ones too like The Apprentice or Voice or So you think you can dance. But then most times it seems these shows are just there to entertain you by showing off absolute weirdos. Sometimes they are downright insulting to these people. And I get why they are interesting for others to watch. The schadenfruede just get such a nice outlet with these shows. But I wonder is it really fair to mock these people? They are out there doing what they think will give them a good chance at life. Who doesnt want to be rich and famous. It's just that they are looking for shortcuts and are usually woefully mistaken about the level of their talent or wrong in their beliefs. But they are trying to do what they can to get what they want within these limitations. And I don't think it's fair to mock them or feel amused at their failures. Though  some of them really are just asking for it :P There's no right or wrong black or white or anythign here. I just needed to put this down somewhere that at the end of the day it is kind of like mocking the underdog and it does'nt sit completely right with me. 

Suspense

There you are

Old wound which is now just a faint scar

So old in fact that

One struggles to remember how long back far

But you exist and I know you watch me

Suddenly out of the blue

You pop on my frequent contact list

And I wonder how, when I never ping you?

The silent opening and closing of a chat

A wish to reach out

And yet a will to not

Leaves me wondering what you would like to say and do not.

Not that it would change things

But it would be nice to speak

Maybe as nothing more than an acquaintance

At least it would end any of the “what did he want to say anyway” suspense

Anecdote

Recently I was telling my mom how one of my seniors went and became a director of a well estd firms and mentioned, well what a lost opportunity, I could have been married to him if I'd hit on him at the right time. To which my mom replied, why don't you just become a director at some company in some time instead. :P \

I love my mom, and actually think this is one of the reasons I have always pushed myself to do well and get the next best thing. Here it is people, proof that behind every successful person(im tweaking it a bit) is a woman :)

Lonely on the way up!

They did not like her growth


So they try to pull her down the steps those

Stories of her abound

Things she never said nor found!



She plods on nevertheless

Trying to focus on those who know her best

But day by day that number dwindle

As they find their mates who need them next



Jealousy was supposed to be

The past time of a wrench

Here however she finds

Jealousy is what all around her know best



She still tries to maintain her calm

And be happy with what she’s got

But she’s stunned everytime

Someone she thought knew her stings her next



For what lesson is life trying to teach her

That wicked people exist she knows

But if they want her to turn next

That’s a path she is not willing to take.

Impact

The dreadful gang rape of Dec, caught the whole world's attention. The barbarianism of that act, left everyone connected or not apalled and angry. But that is not the only legacy it leaves behind. It was a very strong reminder that the Indian society on the whole and the North Indian society has very little respect for women.

Female foeticide, trafficking, dowry deaths, it leaves me seething and wondering what does it really mean to be a woman in India. And the sad reality is that India is a whole different ball game  for women than it is for men.

Is there a solution to it? the glaring answer is no. With the way the population is exploding, there is absolutely no way the situation is going to improve. The upper middle class and rich are comparatively in a better place than the others, however they better start taking precautions too, cause its no longer the vulnerable that these desperate bastards are after anymore, your status can no longer protect you , the mere fact that you are a woman makes you vulnerable.

The impact can be felt everywhere. The fact that I now look at almost every man walking in my vicinity as a potential rapist is something I don't like but is now ingrained in my mind. No longer will you see me with my ear-plugs plugged in walking away and enjoying myself, I find myself on full alert all the time. And it must be disturbing to the guys I glare at too. I'm sure I make it very obvous what I think of them and their kind just by looking at them spitefully. And Im not alone, most women have adopted this wary approach to them. I remember one of my friends from Bangalore asking me on his visit to Delhi, why do all the women always frown here? Well I think I have just found the answer. I would much rather glare a guy away than take the chance of having my life cut short.

The world's just become a much sadder place.

I'm Back, once again :P

Hello people. I was afraid the readership would have dwindled by now seeing my inactivity, but I'm so glad I still seem to be getting some viewership :) So winters are over in Delhi and how. It feels like I'm in the middle of May already.. Not such a good thing because Delhi is really hot in the summers.

 Well anyways. All my friends got married last month, more or less and thats what caused the long absence. That and the fact that I used to either go to work or come back and curl up in the blanket in my desperate attemot to get away from the cold. Anyways one good thing is I am now over the" oh my god everyone is getting married and im still single"  crap thanks to the fact that even after my friends got married not much has really changed in my life and it still continues the way it was earlier. So that's one fear come and gone.

And the next new thing in my life is, Ive started watching One Tree Hill; yes I know its really really old but Ive not really watched it before so what difference does it make? :P I really like it. Its a nice gripping story so far.

 And I'm really looking forward to getting out of Delhi and back to Mumbai. Please pray that this actually happens. I miss Mumbai. It was much safer than Delhi.  I wish the December Rape had not happened. It has just made me more paranoid. im literally glaring at everyone on the road like he's a potebtial rapist and I'm sure the guys are feeling it too. I feel sorry about making them all feel like dirt but hey better safe than sorry. Im gonna look out for myself first. But its pretty off-putting for me too so praying really really hard I get back to Mumbai.

Losing a Friend.

Past and gone
Yet always known
Always felt
Not necessarily missed
But at times, wished.
Wished things had been different
Maybe wished Id never changed my mind
That only friends we'd remained
But why over spilt milk
Should I cry

It's true-
we made better friends than anything more
What pushes us then to hope and pray
why must one's best friend be one's mate?
I miss the friend!
Suddenly tumble on memories old
Remember a kind word or comment left
A small compliment maybe to feel it was true.

And then I miss the friend
I see you struggle with it too
Fate so cruel to have us placed
Not in the same city alone, but in the same sphere
We come face to face
And avert our eyes
One in anger the other in shame
But both are left grasping for that time

That time when we spoke for hours on end
Took walks and wished never to part
All our friendship out of the window gone
no ways to undo the events of the past.
I wish we could speak again
You try to speak but it's not the same
I feel you're trying to make amends
Or out of forced will you take the time

Wish it were'nt so
Makes me wonder where the "true friend" went
Or did i misread the signs as always
was being just friends never your intent?
Did you string me along and- did I blindly believe
Why are'nt things more black and white?
Grey's confuse me- I then believe what I like
And before I realise, it's too late
I've also lost what I thought was mine.

Long time, but Im back now

So the net connection at my place was shaky, for the last 2 months and hence I was not able to post anything. Got a datacard yesterday finally and im so excited that I have the net again :P Though most people will be like really, she took 2 months to get a datacard. And for that I have only one brilliant friend of mine to thank. So this dude told me that he would be getting a datacard issued from the company and I could take his personal one so I dont have to invest too much. I gladly agreed cos honestly it would just have been a waste of money. Now later that week, I had a word about my internet problems with my RM and he very nicely said drop me an email and I will have one issued to you. But that stupid friend of mine went and threw a huge tantrum about how I should not have done that when he had said he was going to lend me his datacard. And so I didnt drop a mail asking for one to be issued from the office. And then this brilliant friend of mine, his datacard took forever to arrive, by the time it did arrive, he went off on leave for 3 weeks, then he came back and was messed up cos his girlfriend is breaking up with him and then finally got off his ass and went and collected the datacard from the office and handed over his to me... So that is why I took two months to get internet connection, something that can be done in one day's time. Anyways, now that I have it, you will see a whole lot more activity from me over here, I promise. And now time to get ready and go to work.  I will catch you guys later with a more sensible post soon i hope.

Under Attack

And you may think I'm talking war,
But to think so simply helps not my cause
For external affaris are all thought of
What no one pays heed to are internal faults.

A girl gets stripped of all her decency and more
You may say this is a known ill
But that it takes the most barbaric force
For us to take note,, is this not us under seige?

Basic rights violated, Basic needs ignored
All our morals flushed down the drain
And we live with the mentality of survival of the best
We survived today, the one hurt was someone else
Such apathy, such mistrust in fate

For we seem to believe
it would never be us,
It happens to the careless, it happens to those who provoke!!
It happens to people who take risks unknown.

And so people mourn the dead
protest, show anger and say the right things
while keeping these thoughts in their heads
I say one thing people, you are no safe.

These criminals lurk within the safety of these false concepts
It's not the external measures but what out society promotes and fosters that protects.
So teach your kids values, every little effort helps
Tell them right from wrong and pray your neighbour does the same
We are no longer at most harm from outside
Its our society, beliefs,customs under attack from within