Life's simple

A toddler learning to walk,
Talking to explain its wants.
Going to school to learn
Learning to try and make a mark.
Fighting to find an identity
finding an identity to fit
Fitting in to gain company
Finding company to belong.
Belonging to share mutual thoughts
Thinking to evolve
Evolving to find a meaning -
Meaning to change the world.

Born in different places-
looking for the same things,
Life's simple, just be strong!

Stalker Alert!!!

Well if theres one thing my life is, its eventful. I honestly need to write a book soon. Here's the latest scoop. I have a stalker. I am not joking about this. This dude who is some 6ft odd and broad shouldered typical beefed up north indian guy, who if you didnt know better you'd mistake for Khalli's bodyguard, is always around when I dont need him. Ok he's not that bad looking but his activities are such that they negate all his good looks. He's always present wherever I am . Its hard to shake him of. If RAW needs someone he's your man.

Here's the fun part, I have never spoken to him, been introduced to him or even been part of the same team as him. SO I guess he just spotted me one day at work and since then whenever I enter office, go for lunch or leave, he's there. And he's beginning to scare me because I thought ignoring him will do the trick. He'd go away and leave me alone. But it does'nt. It's reached a stage where the moment I'm on my office lane I start praying to God that I don't see him today. Unfortunately, I always do.

So I informed all my friends and colleagues here and was advised I can get a mental harassment case launched against him. And I decided my plan of action started looking at the policies etc. But as I said my life is anything but uneventful. The day I was completely set on taking up the issue on a serious note, we had a open house and the SBU head knows the guy because apparently he's writing a book and is some kind of really smart thing. There went my plans for action. Now I cant do anything till I have concrete proof about it. The guy comes and takes a round of my seating area for no apparent reason, just walks past my cubicle in the basement and then goes straight out the door and up the stairs to his place on the ground floor or wherever and I cant do a thing. Well hope he's the intellectual types and won't harm me but just in case something goes wrong I want to leave a record with as many people as I possibly can. So people, don't let him get away with it. I dont even know the guy's full name.

Mumbai

There were three blasts in mumbai today between 6:30 and 7. Office hours crowded places max damage . I seriously do not know what people wanyt to achieve with this. As days go by i begin to lose faith in humanity. But I feel for my people back home. They have been beaten and battered so many times. I love them. I know they will survive this like everything else before. You realise the importance and value of your place only when your not there. Sitting in Noida I wish i was back home where I belong. And I also realise how insignificant things liek a break up are cant afford to cry over stupid people who dont value you when you have so many ones who love you back home and who are in trouble. I seriously have not experienced such a feeling of helplessness or homesickness in my life. nor have i experienced such difficulty in expressing myself. One goes in shock on getting such news. You are not only worried about the safety of your own people but also you want to reach out to the people who's relatives or near ones have been harmed and soothe them, tell them you will be fine. but can you really tell them they will be fine? or are we hypocrites in saying that. All I know for sure is Mumbai is a strong city, the people there are the most formidable I have seen in the country and they will pull through this united and well as always. they will rise again and we will see why mumbai is mumbai and no other city compares to it. though now i have a feeling i sound like one of the politicians my reason for saying this is not because I wish to throw words of inspiration at anyone but because I know what the people there are all about and and what they are capable of. I love mumbai and its people and my thoughts are totally with you at this moment. wish I was there too.

random thought

and days will turn into a week, a week into two, a month will go by and then another... soon it will be a year..... and you will slowly fade and become a sliver of a memory.....all one has to do is be strong and disciplined at the start..... i will not lose my self respect for you.

Meme time... dedicated to Shveta Nagpal

Hey... so here's the meme..... Shveta N has introduced me to this like a few days back and im finally gonna get down and put it up... though i dont know if it will be quite as interesting as hers is.... but im gonna try anyways here goes... :)

1. Tell us who the last person that you took a shower with.

no one actually....

2. Tell us about your favorite tee-shirt. Extra points if you show a pic. (We know. What can you do with freakin' extra points?)

My favorite t... tht will have to be a black turtle neck from M&S.... it compliments curves well and i received my first compliment from a special person when i wore it....

3. Has anyone ever hit on you even though they knew you were taken?

ya...interestingly one of my younger brother's friends...and it was damn sweet and innocent(compared to other hitting on lines(?)) so i didnt mind it :P

4. Do you plan what to wear the next day?

depends on the next day

5. How are you feeling RIGHT now? Why?

haha.. seriously????ths qn is just a lil freaky but im feeling good i guess cos i dont have any reason to feel otherwise

6. What's the closest thing to you that's black?

my bean bag nd am sitting on it

7. Tell me about an interesting dream you remember having.

lol.... i dreamt abt trying to beat someone up by throwing live chickens at them...dont ask me how it works cos it doesnt... the chickens used to fly away before collision.. it could have had something to do with the angry birds app...not sure but it was damn funny cos i remmeber i woke up laughing :P:D ya i do weird stuff like dat

8. Did you or might you meet anybody new today?

no.... i spent today sleeping... but i have been given a suggestion that i shud add a guy so i can comment on one of my froends pics....not decided on whether i shud take the suggestion up

9. If you could be doing anything right now (or perhaps after you finish this ridiculous meme) what would it be?

talking to my boyfriend who unfortunately is too busy roaming around to give me too much time of the day these days.

10. Do you floss?

hmmm.... sometimes :(

11. What comes to mind when I say China?

soups and little chinese people

12. Are you overly emotional?

i dont knw

13. If you could listen to just one rock album (CD, vinyl or mp3) which one would you pick?

Jon Bon Jovi...

14. Do you bite into your ice cream or just lick it?

Lick

15. Do you like your car?

I LOVE my Dad's car!! )(haha i am sticking with shveta's answer here)

16. Do you like yourself?

i love myself....

17. Would you go out to eat with Charlie Sheen?

Nope.... but i would not mind James Franco or Ian Somerhalder or Wentworth Miller or Milo Ventimiglia or Andy Roddick... and i think i shud stop here :P

18. What was the last song that you listened to?

three words... its nice... im trying to learn it

19. Are (or were) your parents strict?

no

20. Have you ever wondered what attending a wild orgy (if only to watch or...) would be like?

no way....

21. I say cottage cheese. You say:

Im on a diet?

22. Have you ever met a celebrity?

cant remember... thr r too many of them roaming around :P

23. What was the last movie that you watched at home?

Bucket list

24. Is there anything sparkly in the room you're in?

yes...

25. What countries have you visited?

none actually

26. Have you ever made a phone call while you were drunk that you've regretted? If yes, do tell.

Hmm not been drunk... man this meme is gonna sound so boring

27. Where were you going the last time that you were on a train?

Kolkata from delhi... spent most of it in the bathroom... stupid ttrin food... never again will i do dat

28. Bacon or sausage?

sausage

29. How long have you had a cell-phone?

2004 i think not too long

30. What other memes do you do regularly?

none

31. Who is the craziest meme host?

Shveta Nagpal....

32. Who invented chop sticks?

silly chinese ppl

33. Who are you going to be with tonight?

lol!!!! Shveta this is going to be the most boring post on my blog ever....

34. Are you too forgiving?

hell ya!!!!

35. When was the last time that you were in love?

still am

36. Tell us about your best friend.

well my best friend found a way to find me ( on orkut)after 10 years of being out of touch ... and even though we are still far away in terms of continents literally i lov ethe fact that we are so in symc with each other that when we speak it feels like im hearing my thoughts being spoken out to me in someone else's voice :)

37. What was the stupidest thing you learned in high school?

hehe..... hmm dont remember much that i learnt in high school actually :P

38. What was the last thing that you cried about?

The fact that I am going to leave mumbai soon :( i cant imagine the fact that im to work in another city and dont know when i will be able to tell ppl i live in mumbai again or if i am ever gonna come back for more than vacations... i love this city... its my home :(

39. What was the last question you asked?

can u come to noida and stay with me... to my mom

40. Favorite thing to do this time of the year?

laze around at home and enjoy the summer

41. If you had to get a (or another) tattoo, what would it be?

dont think i will actually...

42. How would your best friend describe you?

hmm.... need to ask her... will edit this once she replies

43. Have you ever seen all three Twilight films?

YES!!!! I love them..... well actually i just love the book and robert pattinson... the movies were boring and didnt cover most of the book and kristen stewart sucks big time... who told her she can act???

44. Ever walked into a glass door?

yes i think i have...

Favorite color on that person that you are attracted to?

Green... he looks hot in it

46. Have you ever slapped someone?

i tried... but my hand slowed down before it reached the face... damn it.... stupid conscience

47. What hair style (for you) would you like to see return?

Im trying to grow my hair... then ill think abt it... but for now i want them long...

48. What was the last CD you bought?

Il Divo.... where did they go does anyone know???????

49. Do looks matter to you?

the personality does...

50. Could you ever forgive a liar?

no

51. What's the hardest bill to pay every month?

cellphone and internet?

52. Do you like your life right now?

yup... always do

53. Do you sleep with the TV on?

No its in the living room

54. Can you handle the truth?

Yes.

55. Do you have good vision?

yup... 20/20 :P:D i dont know i hope so.....

56. Do you hate or dislike more than 3 people?

not really... im indifferent to people i dont like

57. How often do you talk on the phone?

all the time i think more or less

58. What celeb would you like to come home to?

hmm .... well in the current defn of celebs they r a lil too dumb for me to want to come home to them...

59. What are you wearing?

god this meme is feelign more and more like a sleazy chat with a stranger with every question :P:D

60. What is your favorite wild animal?

leopards :P

61. Where was your facebook picture taken?

Kolkata... my hostel

62. Can you waltz?

hehe... dont think will ever dance in my life

63. Do you have a job?

gonna start soon

64. What was the most recent thing you stole?

y in heavens name would i confess tht here?????

65. Have you ever crawled through a window?

hmm no i have not but my mother has... :P:D

ok... im done with it... shveta let me know wat you think of this and im gonna ask swati to do this too... swati please just copy paste the questions and answer them on your blog.... waise i know your busy and stuff but try when u can.... :)

The nation breathes

The arena is lit

A long wait for the gladiators,

many battles fought and won.

they had better be won bcos a loss means the end

end of the road, end of what they toiled for-

and a long wait for another 4 years;

but these two bands of men have made it this far

the ultimate in their field awaits-

They know what it took to get then there...

the physical test being nothing compared to the mental one,

Months of conjecture, and strategy

Years of criticism and allegations

Why even now when they have won a battle they are questioned about its authenticity

yet they toil

do they do it for themselves or the the pride of the nation?

do they still care about the people who question

or did they just prove a point to the unbelieving

and what do they know who sit on the outside?

do they watch the daily fights against all odds,

the struggle to live as a coherent unit

the strength to believe what they must to win

and go on with a dogged determination

till they reach the peak

and then the nation breathes!

she must wait.....

Tremble little leaves

cos what winds do blow

the tidings they bring, how fate does turn

one by one she sees her friends fall

either victim to demands of society or happy in a new found love

what decides this and why such discrimination??????

she had loved them one and all

since the days they sang as choir girls

to the time they wept in her embrace

tears of joy or fear of the unknown?

what thoughts provoke them out of their homes?

away from all they have known and all that has been

she wonders for she does not know-

watching her friend bid all goodbye

the conflict between the tears and the smile

she knows not how to react and watches spellbound

the questions still weighing heavily on her mind,

a child waiting to watch yet another butterfly rise

would it reach the sun or the wings burn?????

she knows not what to say when its her turn,

"adieu" says her friend with a peck on the cheek-

a little dazed and very confused

trying to gain the answers from unknown signs

she must wait cos she does not know.

Earth Quake!!!

There was an earthquake yest in Pakistan. At 2 in the night to be precise. I was happily washing my clothes. Dont ask me why i was washing clothes at 2 in the night in cold delhi. I am an MBA student... certain insanity goes with the territory (Plus I was determined to have those clothes clean!! :P) Lets focus on the big picture here!!!!

So there was an earthquake in Pakistan. Try picturing my room here first. There's one room... and an attached bath area.. which has two bathrooms, two wash basins and a toilet.. and it leads to anothe room..Back to the story. I am washing my clothes at 2 in the night, and the door to the other room is closed cos Shveta was sleeping and i start hearing noises of the bed moving... Me being not-inquisitive abt such sounds i decided to keep my nose out of it.. till i felt the earth spinning and Ritika yelling from my room frantically... and she goes earthquake! earthquale. And I walk out and go seriously? and she's like ya! so im like y r u sitting on your bed then... you should run downstairs!!(see how i always come up with the right thing to do... :D) So Ritika's like ya.. I should.... And walks towards the door.. and i realise shveta was not responsible for the bed moving and i better wake her up and take her down too; yell frantically for her to wake up... Its another story that she on walking out the room realises that she left her phone in the room and goes to pick it up.. By the time we made it out the earthquale was gone....

and then we came up and called our respective families, friends and loved ones and after ensuring they were safe went back to sleep....

{The earthquake happened in Pakistan and was of 7.5 scale magnitude.. I pray for all the innocent people trapped in it. and for the ones who have left this world.... May they find peace wherever they are}

Of moons and stars!!! :P

So apparently one day the Minnesota planetarium decided it was time to make an impact. And boy did they do it in style. They said the gravitational pull of the moon had changed , thus changing the position of the celestial bodies. Not only did this mean a change in their positions but also a new zodiac emerged out of this, ochiphichus. And by this one statement/finding they have thrown everyone’s SUN signs into disarray. Suddenly a Libran realises she is a virgo, a Capricorn , a saggi; and what would have been considered a good combination is now a mismatch!!! And imagine the countless weddings which are scheduled to take place based on the word of an astrologer, they will all need to get new consultations lest they be the end of each other.. not to mention the ones who are already married, will they now no longer be compatible?? Looks like the divorce rates in India may just hit the roof... :P

But the more important thing here for me is the identity crisis, I as a Libran am supposed to be diplomatic, clever, indecisive and Beautiful!!! I don’t know what I will do now that I am a virgo!!!Its like being told that while you were sleeping the tectonic plates shifted and so now you are a Pakistani and not an India... WTH!!!

Well the bright side is that I was born before the moon decided that it did not love the earth quite as well as it used to before 2009 and changed its gravitational pull, my sun sign will not change and so will everyone else’s who was born before 2009. But it sure adds to the confusion (as if there wasn’t enough confusion around astrology as it is) So now if I were to have a daughter on the 16^th of October( my birthday) she would not be a beautiful Libran but a whatever they are Virgo???? That is seriously depressing...But kudos to the moon for pulling off a fast one on the SUN signs :P:D

My first real winter. :)

Been in Delhi for a month in November and December and back again in Jan. Probably gonna be here for a good month. Having never been north of Mumbai in anything but the winter months, it was bound to be a tough winter for me. But its been fun as such. Its a new experience and a challenge if you must see it that way, cos I had only one thin sweater when i reached this place. Needless to say the warm clothes wardrobe has expanded to three new sweaters, a really thick jacket, woollen socks, gloves, 4 scarfs and 2 new pairs of jeans. I think I love winter. It has given me the chance to diversify the wardrobe. :P

Its been interesting though. Being in a temperature below 5degrees for the first time in my life, has taught me to appreciate hot chocolate and coffee with friends even more than before :P but seriously learnt a lot of new things, some of them being what a heater looks like and how it works, the need to keep your head covered at all times in order to not lose body heat this way, watching the water vapour in your breath condense, being back in the hostel or safe areas before it gets really dark. It also introduced me to the concept of thermals, this is something i don’t think im ever going to stop praising, cos they really are life savers. I have blessed the person who came up with the concept of thermals a thousand times already. And I have another three weeks to go here. Don’t know where I will be going next, but this winter has removed the fear of coping in cold cities from my mind completely. I was literally petrified with the prospect of spending a winter in Delhi but it has smoothed a lot of my worries and made me realise that I can manage it. And I am glad for the first real winter of my life.

What do you want?

Had another pre placement talk with a steel major. Had three veterans speak to us. It was amazing. The things that stayed with me though were

a) we have fabulous people coming and giving us fabulous opportunities

b) There is so much we can learn from them if we just dont let things go to our head

c) A statement made by the marketing head, do u know where you want to go and what do you want to achieve that will make you say this is what i wanted to do when i set out

What do i want to achieve???? I think i know but Im not going to lay it down here in case some HR checks my blog.. :P We are in an era where knowledge is literally flung out at us. Digital media has allowed us to literally have everything at your fingertips. SUre this has made us smarter at our age than maybe the previous generations but there is a flip side

It has oversimplified things

You want to know how a car engine works google it.

You want to see what you missed out on at your friends wedding you didnt attend.. no need to visit him.her just go to facebook

You want to know how to get from one city to the other, why google map has every minute direction laid down for you.

But you want to know where you want ot go in 20 years.... Well there are no directions for that are there... Now if only God would have little arrows pointing in the direction you should take or maybe a step by step flow of what to do next...

What do i want to do in the next 20 years...

I know I want to be in a job I love, and give it my best. And I want to make a difference. Not only at the workplace but also to the society. Now how vague does that sound?? or maybe i know what i want and its just that im still fine tuning it. Anyways... on the lighter side, I know I want to give preplacement talks for a great firm and have everyone hold me in high regard just like we hold those that we see before us today... :P Anyways dont think im concluding this one tonight.