Music makes me lose control... :P

Got a new Ipod... Its a gift from my brother... so Yay!!!! he did something nice for a change... :P Just got to figure out how to use it now... However installing the itunes software/ etc on my lappy made me actually look at the songs i have on my laptop too.. and i didnt realise how long it has been since i heard these... to many at this point of time they may sound like the golden oldies... am listening to Backstreet's Back now and thinking back to 7th std which is when I went crazy about these guys, remembering how we used to find the line " Am I sexual" scandalous even though it doesnt mean anything if you think of it rationally( the person who wrote their songs was granatically challenged I guess.. they should just hire me instead in the future.. :P:D) Anyways its fun to listen to these and I cant wait to put them on the Ipod.

Now here's the thing, I dont understand what gives VH1 the idea that we like rap and Hip-Hop... I think those two are the worst possible thing that could happen to Music... or even a way to console those people who just cant sing and think that them talking fast and in an incomprehensible way is them singing ..... Whats wrong with people that is not music.... please for heaven's sake start singing... let us hear some instruments playing somewhere in the background and some rhythm in your voice.. some softness and emotion apart from that of wanting to shoot everyone else down....

Anyways I am thankful to the Michael Buble's and James Blunt's of the world.... Thank god for you.... I hope people regain their senses and start listening to SONGS again rather than long lists of expletives being strewn around by people who frankly seem more suited for professions such as mugging people in the middle of the night on deserted roads..... And i am grateful that my favourites like Backstreet Boys and westlife still sing.... Some sanity prevails in this mad chaos....

Questions once more

Its 2:40 at night and I still feel like I am looking for something. I am not satisfied at all at the moment. What am i supposed to be doing here? I think I am just going to shoot off questions in this post and you just have to bear with me... I am of course assuming that someone reads this blog other than me...

As I approach another change and a big one at that, these questions just get more and more confusing.... I am at the moment in a very unique situation.... Most of my friends are, by now, settled happily in life be it their job, their clarity on career path or being committed to someone. I suddenly find I have none of these stabilising factors.... and its driving me a little insane with worry. Once more I will be uprooted from a settled lifestyle( that of a carefree student) and thrown into the big mean rat race... Only now it gets much more meaner and dirtier... It is at times like this that i question my ability.... I know I have proven myself many times before... often surprising everyone around me pleasantly but I am not sure how much effort will be necessary to pull off a surprise here... And man do i need to pull off a brilliant surprise here...

In case This is sounding very vague let me just put it down as a series of questions as they come to my mind

Is college really coming to an end

Will I ever have as much fun as I do now( Esp felt when i witness the daily adventures of my fav characters in class Sayo, Meanie, Ipsi,Shveta, Neha, Rohatgi and STRAWBERRY!!! :P)

Where the bloody hell am i headed in life now? I am still struggling to figure out which stream I am gng to get myself into and theres a month and a half left... im so dead

Will I be able to adjust to another change in life

Am I even doing the right thing, especialy when I see all my school friends working , settled in their lives, buying homes and cars...and i am again at a stage where i have to start out with nothing in hand....

What do companies expect of me now? How does one prepare???

Why am i so clueless.. Please dear god tell me everyone feels the same cluelessness

So now do you see why i am so sleepless tonight???? Please let me find the answers to some of these questions soon.....